Sunday, December 30, 2007

Sometimes being quiet and walking away may be the solution.......

I can't stand injustice. I can't stand annoying comments about disciplining children when pp who said them actually know nothing about discipline. I can't stand so many things these days. I can't stand hypocracy. I can't stand pp who are revengeful. I can't stand pp who constantly find fault with others.

And I can't stand myself for not being able to manage these things objectively. I want to ignore this and I think I should, in order to maintain my sanity. I CANNOT let it out on my children. They ARE NOT at fault. I am banning myself from being harsh on my kids when they are not at fault.

What do I do? These things keep on recurring because it is the same pp involved! It's so difficult to ignore. It' so difficult to keep quiet about it. I always end up telling them off - directly or indirectly - which can lead to hostility.

I just have to learn to keep quiet and deep in my heart sincerely seek Allah's help at the point when this thing happen... and imagine the rewards....When they start their nonsense again, I SHOULD walk off and rescue my children quickly - if truly they are not at fault or don't deserve such a treatment.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Messy.

My life's in a mess. It started a few days before my birthday and escalated on the afternoon of my birthday. It's me + other people's negative vibes + misunderstandings. It's made worse by the terrible nightmares that I had. Everything seems to go downhill. I'm trying hard to just move on but it's hard...The situation is very political and I just hate it.

I'm badly seeking Allah's help to mend the situation. It's too tough for me to handle alone. I need a lot more guidance. Getting older is becoming more difficult. I just feel like going somewhere far and just leaving behind everything. But that's not possible, in the short-run. I don't want to talk about it.

I'm now looking at the prospect of mending ties. For a start, I'm trying to cool off and just be quiet. And if I ever talk, I got to say something neutral...for the sake of family ties... for the sake of Allah.