Here I am - exhausted.

The thing about teaching is the money is gd, the experience is gd when you get the gd classes. However, if you get the tail-end Normal Academic classes...God....you're basically getting HELL.

All my 4 classes are Normal Academic classes. They are not easy to manage. But I see some hope in them except this particular class.

When I'm mad with that class, especially the childish ones, I tend to let it out - not intentionally, on my children and my husband when I'm at home. It's so unhealthy. It's so bad. They don't deserve it, man....

It's almost 10 weeks - 1 term. I have a choice to leave. But the salary is needed and useful to pay for the kids' enrichment classes...and the other 3 classes I'm having are quite sweet. They've shown they can cooperate and respond to my effort. I wouldn't want to leave partly because of them.

Most important of all - My children need my love and attention. They seem to be getting very little from me these days and I'm looking into ways to improve the situation. At the end of the day, I want to be there for my children and my husband and I'm considering other ways of getting income - other than from MOE.

Annoying!

I was already busy with lesson prep when I was given the duty to relief a class. I have no problem standing in for anyone who is on leave but I mind having to prepare materials for the class. I have 4 Normal Academic classes and they already suck my blood enough. Lesson prep and Markings are up to my neck. By asking me to find materials to occupy the kids when reliefing the class means to find stuff, make master copy and print!! Ridiculous!! Who's the one who gets the bonuses - not me! Why do I have to do other pp's job. If that's the case I want to go on leave and shake leg because other pp can always stand in for me, prepare materials and teach the students on my behalf.

When I took childcare leave, I had my own materials, all ready.... (and I'm the hourly-rated worker.) All the relief teacher had to do was just to go to class, give the worksheets and just ensure that the students do them. I expect others to do the same (definitely since they are the full-timers!!!). They should be professional about it. I'm going to assert my rights this Monday and give the necessary feedback to the relevant pp.